MY HOODOO..

I'm cursed.

It's actually hard to believe and I don't think I really am, however my friends thinks so. It's so unreal and totally phantasmagoric. Though it may seem strange my friends think that I have the LAST GIRLFRIEND curse. It more sounded like a disease to me that a voodoo thing. But unfortunately it merely means that I'm always the EX-girlfriend before the wife, completely far-fetched, right?!

After actually thinking it through and some researching , I then made a conclusion that I'm really cursed. So here's the story...

My first boyfriend when I was 16 and he was 19 then, got married after 4 months of our break-up because he got someone pregnant. It's very shocking then for me and somehow unexpected. Moving on, my second swain on my freshman days in college married his next sweetheart also because he got her preggy (talk about serious teenage pregnancy problem). My third relationship lasted for about three years (which I thought was my soulmate) married his fiancee last year , I don't know his reason, maybe their really inlove. (lol) After that my fourth flame who was 5 years older than I am and our amorous feelings lasted for 2 years, he "tie the knot" last year also with the girl he cheated and choose over me. (Hell!!) And my 5th and so far last relationship yet, sent me an e-mail that he found "the one" and he's ready to walk down the aisle. (Crap!)

I can't believe it, it's really impossible but it's actually happening, I really am their last EX-gf. OMG. To think their all my serious relationship. What am I the bridge to happiness?!

Seriously?!

I feel bad, maybe I'm not really the marrying type(*sob) or maybe I haven't found the right one yet. I've been kissing the wrong frogs all those times?! WTF..

Photo from scaryforkids.com (tnx)

Hush Hush

im actually feeling this blogging thing.. it's somehow fun & it excites me.. (yipee), also im so delighted that i got 2 comments (yay me!) hahaha.. yes, I know... im too shallow.. but hey.. at least I have something to be happy about.. :)

...however i still kinda feel a little bit insecure about my blog coz it's not as good as other blogs.. but then again I realized that it wasn't about them.. it's ALL ABOUT ME.. so I should follow my heart & do what makes me happy. (drama!)

NOW WHAT?! after that dramatic Intro, I'm going to psyche myself & make a list of random facts about Me!!!

• I'm a 24 year old female with NO JOB Experience.. & I'm not proud of it.. most of my college friends & classmates are working their butt of & earning money while I'm here at home all day..It's not that I'm not qualified to work or something, as a matter of fact I have a two college degree.. but then my Lola (grandma) wanted me to study more.. it's great alright, but i also wanted to work & have my own paycheck, and know what it feels like.. do you get what i mean?!


• I have 3 sisters & 4 brothers... It's BIG i know.. but I rarely see them, my Lola sort-of adopted me when I was 16... it's complicated..


• I utterly despise MATH and number related subjects.. what’s not to hate?! It’s so hard, & my brain hurts everytime someone asks me about number stuff..


• I failed my Labor Law subject back in college & my family never found out about it..


• I recently realize that I have acrophobia.. w/c I’m totally sure I don’t have a year ago.. weird.. those cable cars are to blame..


• I used to be really submissive.. I can’t say NO.. however I’m glad it’s over.. being a YES person has a bad side. (seriously!)


• I’m super sensitive & I cry easily w/c is embarrassing (most of the time).. don’t blame me, I just can’t help it.. (*sniff)


• I am more of a listener than a talker.. my friends love me for that.. (not quite sure..).. but then there are those many times that I talked a lot,, esp when I'm in the mood.. (never mind)


• I don’t drink.. those tipple kind.. hate me if u may.. I just don’t.


• I don’t smoke.. by choice.. it’s totally unhealthy.. I’m not judging anyone.. It’s just my opinion (peace!)


• I am OCD about little things.. like how my own mess are still in order.. & I like that about me..


• I’m not good at keeping secret.. except my own.. (of course!)


• I am an absolute book fiend. I love reading on top of anything,, it’s like their my bestfriend ,,i prefer the overly romantic stories, also suspense & science fiction are also a good read for me..


• I am completely obsessed with gossip girl. I love it. I love absolutely everything about it.


• A WALK TO REMEMBER is my favorite movie of all time (yet), it never failed to make me cry… (*sob)


• I'm forever in a diet.. unfortunately there is no considerable result.. (sad..)

well that's all for now.. I felt different after writing all that.. Is it normal? So weird..

(I got the photo from polyvore.. I just love it.)